Saturday, July 13, 2002

YAY! No dreams!!!

Brian's off graves - good thing too because he was never ever getting enough sleep. I worry about him... Ack I need to stop thinking about him is what I need to do.

Scott's back in town... I haven't seen him in a good three months or so, and Dave is here too, but he's leaving tomorrow, so we all really need to get together and do something. I'm talking to Scott right now actually - sheesh he's behind on the info! Hehehe, I want to go to the lake. Oh wait, it's only a stream right now. Hey, thunderclouds! C'mon RAIN!!!

There's a fire burning on the back of the Pinals right now - I really hope it doesn't get too big. It would suck to have another Rodeo-Chediski incident with Globe. I don't want to fight any more fires. I don't want to sit on any more roadblocks. PLEASE rain...

Song Quote of the Moment: "Well that's one thing we've got"

Friday, July 12, 2002

I had the wierdest dream last night. Brian and Tracy and Trevor and my cousin Michelle were in it. I know, strange Wizard of Oz vibes there... Anyway, Shell and I were riding horses in downtown Vegas (yeah I said it was wierd) and there was no traffic whatsoever. We ended up at Ceasar's Palace, and when we went inside we met up with Tracy, who looked about 8 months pregnant. We all took off down one of the hallways, checking out the stores and shops (all empty, by the way) when we heard footsteps behind us. For some reason we knew we were being followed and it wasn't good, so we started running. Tracy and I lost Michelle, and when we saw her again she was behind glass in another room strapped down to a chair. There were clear tubes running out of her head and into a machine behind her. I grabbed a chair and swung it at the glass, but just before it hit I found myself standing in the middle of this empty field. I was sinking in the sand, and not foar away so was Trevor. He was closer to the edge than I though, and got out, but I couldn't reach. I remember my face going under and sand getting in my eyes, and thinking how much it was going to suck to try to wash it out. Then I was back at the casino again, only this time I was sitting in the chair where Michelle had been earlier. I could feel the tubes in my head - it felt like they were slowly going deeper. I could see my reflection in the glass, but I could also see Brian standing on the other side. I remember him just standing there staring at me with a completely blank expression on his face. I kept screaming but all he did was stand there. Then everything went white, and Brian and Michelle and Tracy were all standing in the street.

Then my cat slammed against my door and woke me up. Like I said though, crazy dream. *shakes her head* It's wierd, I usually don't dream much at all, let alone something wierd like that. *shrugs* I need counselling. ^_^

Song Quote of the Moment: "Mi vida loca"

~Pam Tillis

Well, I'm here... but I really don't know what I want to write. Got a message from Tracy today and I'm all smiles... Her brother's wife is having her baby, so she's going up to Vegas on Sunday. I need to get ahold of her now though so I can figure out when I'll be able to get in the house (like Trevor's ever awake!). What else? Not much. I'm bored.

Song Quote fo the Moment: "Here we go!"


Thursday, July 11, 2002

Rain just makes ya feel so good...


Wednesday, July 10, 2002

Well, I'm back from Phoenix. Buz doesn't have braces anymore. He's thrilled. I didn't get to see Mindy and Samantha though... Mindy had to go help Tony out with some carpeting project and so she was going to be gone until like 8 or 9. *shrugs* Oh well. Maybe next time, in three or four months.

I don't feel so well. I don't care.

Numb to the world...

Tuesday, July 09, 2002

*sighs* Well, geez, I don't even know what to write right now. I lost him... Not as a friend, not for good, but it still hurts so much.

I wish I was somebody else. I wish...

Sunday, July 07, 2002

Oh my...

Well, I guess I should be careful what I wish for. My brother just walked in the door. He got fired, how nice. Apparently last night he was doing a ton of stuff and the manager was giving him crap that he doesn't do anything, so she told him to clean half of one of the grills. Well, it was only 930p and so he tried to argue that it was too early, but they didn't listen to him. So he cleaned it and about ten minutes later they ended up getting swamped, and the girl at the drive through window told my brother it was his fault and if he wasn't so slow nothing would be wrong. Well bad, Buz, I guess he told her f*** you guys that if he hadn't been forced to clean the grill early in the first place there wouldn't be a problem, and when he went to work this afternoon his manager told him he was fired for cussing her out. I see wrong on both sides of this story...

Talked to Scott earlier - that's another person I haven't seen in oh, 20 years or so... ^_^ I miss him so much. He's in Ohio right now (I think) with his girlfriend. He really likes her, I can tell, but she's only 16. She's still got her senior year to finish, and I really don't know if she feels comfortable with the whole relationship idea. She says she wants to be with Scott, but she also says she wants to be able to go out and have fun and if she happens to kiss another guy she doesn't want that to be a problem. I think she just hasn't made up her mind yet. I remember my relationship at 16 - granted it didn't end very well but I know that I was thinking, 'Hey, I'm 16. If it doesn't work out, oh well, I've got time.' (Glad I changed my outlook) I just know what she's probably thinking, and it would probably do Scott some good to be prepared just in case. I'm not saying anything bad is going to happen, just saying be ready if it does, buddy.

ACK and he told me I'm acting like John!!! Dave, get the gun. He was kidding, but OMG if I ever hear that again I will personally save everyone the trouble and just shoot myself. Scott, you're such a brat. You realize, I hope, that you're in for it for just SAYING that as soon as you get back here! :)

I write in this thing way too much, you know? I'm just really bored out of my mind right now. Mom had to leave today, Dad is back in Flagstaff, Cody's at Gram's and Buz is at work. I hate being alone. HOME alone is no problem, I'm just lonely. I wish I were anywhere but here right now...

Song Quote of the Moment: "Until the end of time"

~Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman

My magical style is Psychic.

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I always knew I was special... *grins*

I get to see Brian tomorrow... *grins*

Well, my day started good. Didn't start good for Baby (mom's chihuahua) but was good for me! My brother's duck was swimming in the pool this morning and Baby went out there and started harassing him. He just flew up out of the pool down on her head and started munching away at her ear. I've never seen that dog move so fast, she was on the porch in a heartbeat. It was so hilarious!!! Teach her to mess with that duck, won't it?

My kitty got better, yay! Still don't know what was wrong with him, the crazy. Just read my e-mail. Brian is working way too much... I worry about him. I know he can handle it, but sometimes sleep is a LITTLE nice... *sigh* I don't know...

Song Quote of the Moment: "Didn't wanna leave you with the wrong impression"

~Natalie Imbruglia (or not)