Thursday, March 21, 2002


Well I just got back from Phoenix and picking up my mom. I really missed her! I don't think I really realized how much I did until I got her home. I'm used to not seeing her often, I mean, I did live in Tucson, and I DID go to basic, but you know sometimes it's good just to hang out with Mom. Doesn't matter what you say or talk about or do... She HAS to love ya! You know, no criticisms, no I don't like you, no stress... At least not now. Trust me, by Sunday she will have me stressed in ONE way or another!

Yeah... So I'm probably going to Show Low tomorrow to find a place to live when I get up there. Saturday I'm hopefully going to a rodeo. My cousin Hadley is riding and I want to see him and Becky again. I've really only met them just 2 years ago, and the last time I saw Becky was at my uncle's funeral. It would be nice to see family WITHOUT something being terribly wrong for once, you know?

AAAHHHHHHHHH!!! Okay just had to get that out of my system. I needed that! I get so restless when spring hits - means summer's comin'! And considering today it's 85* I'm really going stir crazy. It's like, here it is! Let's go do something! Except I can't... It sucks being broke. I should make Rach come visit me.

Song Quote of the Moment: "That's when you will know."

~Unwritten Law

Tuesday, March 19, 2002

Well, I finally finished upgrading this thing. It's not really much - I just finally decided to install all of the links to other blogs I know. It took me awhile, but I'm getting there! I never said I was an html goddess... ^_^ I want to change the entire background, but yeah, I'm ever going to be able to do that! It would be cool though to put sort-of a poster backdrop with pics, like my artwork and some real pics of friends and stuff... *sighs* I can't do that!

People read this!!!

HI CARLOS! And hi Chrissy too! Wow, I haven't talked to her or Ro for ages, and I actually caught them both this afternoon! They're both doing good, from what I gather. Geez, I didn't realize how much I missed them! It was good talking to them though. Sheesh - I was 17 when I first met them all. Over two years, and I still love 'em. Good friends, even if we HAVEN'T ever met! ^_^

Well I'm talking to everyone and they're dog now... I'll write more later.

Song Quote of the Moment: "I'm coming up so you better get this party started!"


Monday, March 18, 2002

Well, I just got done talking a little bit to John. It was online, of course, because you know me! I never use a phone... I don't understand what he wants from me. I haven't been intentionally not calling him - I even DID call him back the other day (damn wrong number though), but he's making it out like I'm some monster that refuses to talk to him or call him back. You know, it's really starting to upset me too. I finished talking to him and I was angry. He accuses me of these things and doesn't even take into account what has been going on in my life. You know, I'm so sorry that I didn't call, but damn, I have to raise my brothers now, take care of all the finances of not only mine but my mother's household, deal with all the problems coming out of Show Low and everything I have to do to get ready to move up there, GOD! That alone was enough, but then my cousin Jessi got married, and 11 days ago my uncle died, so I had to sit through a funeral too. I'm sorry if my emotions have been a damn thunderstorm, but yeah, maybe calling him WASN'T my top priority. I've had quite a few other things to do.

I dont' know, I'm just mad right now.

Song Quote of the Moment: "We are, we are the youth of the nation."


Sunday, March 17, 2002


I think I've neglected this poor page! It's mad at me... :) So, what's new? I'm living in Globe now (but not for long!). My mom took a CDL license course, and now she's working for Swift. She's driven all the way up to New Hampshire, stopped twice in Texas, and now she's on her way to Portland, Oregon. She was still in Nebraska this morning when I talked to her. I miss her so much! But anyway, to explain, like I said she's on the road, so I got stuck with the responsibility of my two younger brothers. I swear to God I will NEVER have children. I'm already going crazy... Now I know why I enjoyed living alone so much - it's ALONE!!!

I don't have much longer to be tortured though. I'm moving to Show Low in late April, because on the 1st of May I'm starting at my unit full-time as the Administrative NCO for the 1404th. I get to be in charge of all the paperwork... Pay, bonuses, benefits, promotions... Anything that needs a form, that's what I'll be doing. I'm really excited too. full time, benefits, better pay than I WAS getting (good riddance Ross), and if I stick with the full-time thing, I can retire in 20 years. That's still 39!!! Could you imagine retiring at 39? Oh, this is going to be great for me. I could even pursue a second career if I wanted to AFTER the first. ^_^ So many possibilities.

What else? I really REALLY miss my friends in Tucson. Dave and Dee and Jenn and Carlos and Dan and John... I miss them all. :( I haven't seen any of them in a good month or more... I talked to Dan about a week ago but that's about it. John and I broke up - well, really I guess I broke up with him. I just couldn't deal with it anymore. I never got to talk to or see him, and it's too hard trying to keep up a long distance relationship. And to say the truth I really don't think I was ready. I like being single and having tons of friends a lot better than being tied to one person. *shrugs* Maybe it's just me. Hey, I know I'm immature! :) Just not ready for that yet. I still wanna go play in the sandbox! LOL!

HI CARLOS!!! I don't even know if Carlos reads this thing anymore, but I'm gonna keep my promise. I have to say 'hi' to him every time I type in this thing. So yeah! Carlso if you still read this thing e-mail me kay? My new address is on the right of the screen (spam was getting a little much in the old one).

So anyway, that's all I have to say for now, so I'm out... My blog shouldn't feel QUITE as neglected anymore! ~_^ Peace!

Song Quote of the Moment: "Rise!"