Yeah, I know, I said I really missed my mom, and I know, I hardly ever see my dad, but good Lord they are already driving me insane. My mother can never figure out just what she wants at any given moment... She's never happy with anything and wants to change everything, but she never does it. I feel really bad because after she lost her job at the mines we started going under big time, and it just keeps getting worse... She took out another loan recently, one that dad doesn't even know about. I hate being in charge of her bills, because I don't know what to tell who, you know? ACK! I need a job... This babysitting just isn't going to cut it, and I'm not going to do it anymore. I don't know what my mom will do with the boys, but it's something she'll have to figure out, because I need to live my own life. I'm going to talk to Jessi and see if she still wants me to work for her, and if not then I'm going to get some little job here in town until I can save up enough money to go back to school and move out of here. *sigh* So much to do...

Let's see, what else? Not much really. The lieutenant and JP graduate today... You know when I was little I couldn't wait to go to school and graduate and become some wonderful person... Why can't I still feel like that? I'm so frustrated with everything that's going on that I don't even care anymore, and that's sad. I let my parents down big time when I quit school, I know... *smile* Guess I should quit crying about it and fix the damn problem, shouldn't I? ^_^

Song Quote of the Moment: "Any luck at all is better than nothing"

~Matchbox Twenty

HI CARLOS!

Good morning world - bizarre. I got to sleep in this morning, since my mom and dad both happened to get home yesterday. Yeah, my mom came home early and suprised me. What's even more crazy though is me thinking nine o'clock is sleeping in. I remember the good ol' noon days... ^_^ Boy haven't done that in forever.

I'm going to Tucson Wednesday, and to Teenie's wedding in Vegas on the 25th... things are starting to get busy. I'm going to find something to do though, even though in Globe there isn't much. I'm going to school - no doubt. I know Kimmie got her RN in only two years in college in Show Low, so I've decided to do the same thing. I think it was the prerequisites that killed my spirit, and if I can get around them, it will be worth it. *sigh* I just have to find a job...

Song Quote of the Moment: "Walk this way!"

~Aerosmith

JP, you're insane...

HEY CARLOS! I just got done working out - whew! I popped my hip though and it didn't exactly feel peachy. ^_^ Oh well, I'll live.

So yeah, AT is next month this year instead of July, and I' actually really looking forward to it! I really like being able to get away from my normal life for awhile, and I have so many friends in the guard that I barely ever see, so I'm looking forward to having more time with all of them too. Of course, by the end of AT last year everyone was ready to kill eachother, but hopefully this one will be a little less hostile than that one was...

Good Lord I need to learn how to keep typos out of my life... I swear I hit backspace more than any other key on this stupid board. Oh well. I'm hoping to go to Tucson on Wednesday to see Dave and Dan - I missed Dan the last time I visited and I don't think he's forgiven me yet. And then there's an annual BBQ in Flag on the 30th for the unit, only I've never heard of it before and I've been in this unit for almost three years now. Hmm... maybe it's a NEW annual thing... LOL! Anyway, I don't even know if I'm going - I'd have to stay a couple of days with my dad if I did. *shrugs* Guess I should see who else is planning to go.

Well, I guess that's about it for now. DAMN the typos!

Song Quote of the Moment: "I wonder what it's like to be the rainmaker"

~Matchbox Twenty

Oh and by the way I guess... Well, I was all excited and very happy and I just got slammed... Not slammed, just let down a bit I guess. I didn't get the job in Show Low. Brigade had one extra AGR position, and when Trujillo leaves they're going to be even, so there's no way to bring me in yet. SFC Smith is going to keep trying, but I'll probably have to re-board and I know I'll have to get another PT test (no problem) and it could be months... I don't really know what I'm going to do now. I just hope I can find something...

Well, drill weekend went pretty well... We were supposed to go to Flagstaff and stay in the field for Friday night, Saturday, and part of Sunday, but brigade decided to keep us in Show Low. So instead of night driving and such we did fourteen million PMCS's on the trucks, reorganized the entire armory, cleaned gas masks, and wore ourselves out between the PT test on Sunday and the loads of paperwork out. But it was a pretty productive weekend. We have a common inspection on the 11th of this month, and everything needed to be perfect up there. I just hope we do pretty well with it.

Let's see, what else? My mom should be home this weekend, and I'm really looking forward to it. I miss her. Being in Show Low this weekend made it hit home I think... I have a lot of really good friends up there, but I only get to see them once a month, so I really miss them. Well, I realized that's about all I'm seeing of my mom anymore, too. Guess it just made me think about it, when before I was just sorta pushing it to the back of my mind. *sigh*

Song Quote of the Moment: "I love you"

~Jewel