Whew! And life goes on...

I just saw this thing that says Shakira: Latin Britney? Okay, why do we NEED a Latin Britney? Why can't she just be Shakira? DON'T COMPARE!!! It gives me headaches...

Speaking of, I just got rid of one hell of a migraine today, thank you God, and now all I have to worry about is not getting another day off until Monday. Spectacular... I really wish I had a job 9 to 5, Monday through Friday. Those people who say they need a little change in their lives don't know just how great repetitive behavior can be, you know? At least they get weekends...

Well, back to Virginia in February. Or so is the plan right now. I want to see Rach again. I miss her something fierce. It really sucks when your best friend, and I do mean that literally, lives all the way across the country. Not to mention Julie and Neil and mom and dad (#2) and even Jared and Ron. *laughs* What a character. Rachael and Julie have both done well for themselves in the guy department.

Hmm... I'm thinking of cooking the cat and being done with it. Suggestions anyone? E-mail them to me! Recipes are a plus... lol. Well, I guess I'd better get some sleep before work calls tomorrow...

Song Quote of the Moment: "I don't want to waste my time, become another casualty of society."

~sum41

Life spirals in so many different directions, but somehow ends up in the same place. No matter what your story, SOMEONE can relate. Everyone is born. Everyone dies. No matter what you do or where you go, that's how it's always going to be. The only comfort you can take in life is knowing in some way you've had an influence on ANOTHER life. That is, unless that influence ruins another. I've made a mistake. I've made tons, actually. I just don't know where I'm going. I guess in the end it doesn't matter, but now it does. I guess I better find out...

Song Quote of the Moment: "I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter."

~Linkin Park

And now he's home... Ro I don't understand. Why do you do this? To yourself? To me? You know, if you really need someone to rant to or to talk to or ANYTHING... You know I'll take it, you know I will listen to anything. That's what friends DO. Unless I've just got a LOT of things wrong... About friendships in general, or maybe just me.

Well...

I'm a bit calmer now, I have to say. Kinda mad more than anything, just waiting to hear from Gavin or Cyra or ROWIN. *shrugs* I don't see it happening though. I was ready to go to Texas myself... Just ask Julie or Rach. If the reason is big enough, I'll be there. I was ready. Big hoax. Ha ha, Ami. Joke's on you. *sigh* Maybe I should've just stayed offline. You're right, I don't know what's going on, the whole story, but being played with like this... I'm not thrilled. Not at all.

I came in here with a thousand and one things on my mind to say, and now that I'm actually going to say them i don't even know what to write. It's all my fault? There's a start...

Rowin is missing. Well, was, anyway. Gavin and I know where he is now. I guess that's what started it all, for me anyway, but something has been stirring between Ro and Cyra for a bit now. I'm not really sure what, and getting answers here is like talking to a brick wall, so I've just been trying to sort this out the old fashioned way. Do some digging, see what others have heard. It's something about their friendship, I know that. I just don't know what. Well, to bring things up to date, I was talking to Cyra today when I still didn't know where Rowin was, and she was asking about him. she said she probably knew what was going on, but she wasn't sure and wasn't going to tell me until she was. Oookay... I can handle that. Well, we kept talking, while I was also talking to Gavin and Cora to try to figure this stupid thing out, and I'm not sure what I said, but Cyra just froze. She said to tell Gavin she had her answer (which he was clueless about) and then she said she'd probably never see me again and disappeared. Okay, yeah, the whole it's my fault thing comes into perspective right about now. So she e-mailed Cora, but I don't know what about because Cora won't tell me (Cyra doesn't want he to) and Gavin left five minutes ago to go get Ro. I just don't know what to do here.I'm confused as hell for one thing, but going from complete worry that one of your friends is missing somewhere to the frustration that he did it to you on PURPOSE to knowing that people are hurting and there's nothing you can do... I've made a huge mistake and people are hurting bacause of it. I'm sorry Cyra, and I'm sorry Ro. You guys know I would do anything for you... ANYTHING. I just think I really messed something up here and I don't know how to fix it...

I'm so sorry.

Song Quote of the Moment: "Cause I'm in too deep"

~sum41