Saturday, November 26, 2005


I'm sitting here by my window listening to the winds rush through the pine trees in ours and the neighbors' yards. It sounds really nice. Too bad it's blowing fifty mph out there and a cold front is coming in... Only supposed to get up to 27* tomorrow night. Brrr...

Well, happy Thanksgiving all. Yes, mine was great. Ate too much. Still eating too much, but I don't care, 'cause it's good. This is the first Thanksgiving since high school that David hasn't called me on. :(
Married life must be bliss. I miss him...

Shyla, Pancho's beagle, is pregnant. I don't even know what kind of dog the daddy is, so I hope that she doesn't have problems having the pups. She's pretty small for a beagle, so I don't know. And then there's my grandma's dog, Callie, who is lost. Have you seen her?

Probably not...

Pancho is in Pennsylvania, all of my friends live elsewhere, and my parents are smoking me out of existance, but it's been a good holiday. Can't wait for the next one.

Song Quote of the Moment: "I wish you were here"

~Don't remember

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Old Feelings, New Feelings

Ever notice that no matter how much you try to change your feelings, they really don't listen to you? No matter how badly you want to feel one way, you still feel another? Someone can totally piss you off for the rest of your life, and the next day say or do something to make you forget ever being angry with them.

Well, I feel like that all the time. My emotions go up and down daily. Maybe it's me, and not the person I'm trying to hate. I can't hate him. I love him. I've loved him for over two years, and I don't know how to make that stop. I can't make that stop. I just... I don't know.

I got some emails from some VERY old friends today, going back to my U of A and high school days. It was nice to hear from them. Reminds me I'm not alone in the world. I never realize how much I miss people until I talk to them. Probably why I'm so terrible at keeping in touch - I don't like missing people. Wish I could see them... Wish I could TRAVEL like them! Don't get me wrong, I've been my share of overseas, but I'd like to go on an actual vacation as opposed to a deployment. You know?

I know, I'm crazy talking. Not going to get into depressing stuff, here. I'm not.

Song Quote of the Moment: "Every time I hear that song, I go back"

~Don't know