Old Feelings, New Feelings

Ever notice that no matter how much you try to change your feelings, they really don't listen to you? No matter how badly you want to feel one way, you still feel another? Someone can totally piss you off for the rest of your life, and the next day say or do something to make you forget ever being angry with them.

Well, I feel like that all the time. My emotions go up and down daily. Maybe it's me, and not the person I'm trying to hate. I can't hate him. I love him. I've loved him for over two years, and I don't know how to make that stop. I can't make that stop. I just... I don't know.

I got some emails from some VERY old friends today, going back to my U of A and high school days. It was nice to hear from them. Reminds me I'm not alone in the world. I never realize how much I miss people until I talk to them. Probably why I'm so terrible at keeping in touch - I don't like missing people. Wish I could see them... Wish I could TRAVEL like them! Don't get me wrong, I've been my share of overseas, but I'd like to go on an actual vacation as opposed to a deployment. You know?

I know, I'm crazy talking. Not going to get into depressing stuff, here. I'm not.


Song Quote of the Moment: "Every time I hear that song, I go back"

~Don't know